It is sugar feast for every Muslim in the world… So in that case will like to say happy sugar feast. Minal aidin wal faidzin everybody..
It's 5 A.M and i'm awake. WoooHHooo.. Not a normal thing to happen and to do for a lazy girl name Chakee. However, while I’m hoping for my friends to open their eyes and take their lazy ass to the shower, I am actually waiting for the water to boil (for my morning coffee). As I throw my sight to the dark dawn sky, I started to wonder Could we easily forgive?
There are many things that we ask and give for an apology in this world. There are lies; there are mistakes, bad attitudes and so on that we want to clear the air from. Since it could be a weeklong discussion for all of those points, I’m going to make this short. So I’ll narrow it down and talk about one of the things we most likely do. Lie! Many people lie. We make a mistake then we lie, we are hiding something then we lie, we feel bad then we lie and all other reasons that bring us to the “Lie Land”. Nevertheless, there are many ways to get there. There are small lies, big lies. There are white lies, black lies. There are lies with plans and lies in the last minute. Any kind of lies you want to list. In the theory of forgiveness it stated that we could forgive or accept someone apology for his or her lies, as long the address for the “lie package” are right (by that sentence I mean the reasons). But Does that rule could be easily use to all lies we made in practice?
What happen if you lie to yourself about your feeling? In short (in my opinion) it is known as denial. Lets take a case, If you like someone that actually not available (other word is not single), you lie to him/her about your feelings since you don’t want him/her to be “cornered” by your feelings. In this case, you lied maybe with a reason that you want him/her finish his/her “things” with his/her present partner and deal with you later. Is that lying acceptable? You lie to your self. Are you capable to forgive yourself lying to your own heart?
Somehow you try to save your feeling for not confusing him/her. You act like you could deal with it and postpone all the feelings for him/her. How long you could gamble for something that you don’t even know what will happen to you in the future? While your feelings in stake and you hold it all for his/her advantage, could that be called a white lie? But then I remember when you start a lie; another lie will come and follow. While you hold your feelings and made another lie to yourself that everything will be ok, or I can wait don’t you worry lie (for example), could you actually handle it all? And in for that matter somehow you hurt yourself in one way, could you forgive then forget a lie you make to yourself?
I guess it couldn’t be forgotten. Anyways every mistake that you made will leave a hole in your heart or someone else’s heart. A mark that is hard to be erased. When you are alone at night you feel the pain that no one could heal. There should be a time that those mistakes flash back into our mind, it could be an accident or in a certain purpose brought it up to the surface. While the person you are waiting enjoying each minute of his/her feeling with the other person, (for the case above) I suggest for you to stop lying about your feelings in the sake of someone else happiness, which he/she didn’t even care about yours.
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