Kiss Communication

Today was a nice day. I had succeeded to have some fun outside for a while. Sabrina called and we decided to hang out at the Diemerplein (it is a place with all the shops in my little town). The place is small but at least it provides most of the things we need. We met at this family café (I might say).

I love this place. It has this perfect ice cappuccino (which they only sell it in the summer) and the friendly atmosphere. Well anyways, most people that come to this place is from the age box 40 to older. There are some younger people around but most of them came there with their family.

I was sitting there all by myself waiting for Sabrina. As I sat and look around I saw all these old people chatting and laughing with their friends. Every new people comes in they said hi to each other and give the Dutch kiss (which is the kiss on the cheeks 3 times). Then I couldn’t help but wonder what actually kisses represents?

There are many kinds of kisses and in many ways. It’s unbelievable the feelings that kisses could give. It could be a greeting when you meet friends or families. It could represent the feelings you care for your love one. It could be a passionate sign. It could be most things. It depends on the way we give it and to whom the kisses are given.

Even a kiss on your forehead, you could sense the caring from the person who kissed you. It is weird that you can’t fake those things. You just don’t feel the care if the person who kiss you didn’t kiss you with care. You can’t feel the love if the person who kissed you didn’t kiss you with love. Is there any rulebook on how you kiss?

Some people do need a way to show their love and care. For a person like me prove is needed. You may say that my life is like a court. I need a case, I need reasons and I need prove. I never said that words are not important. But surely we can fake what we feel and explain it in the opposite ways. But with your attitude you barely could fake it. Is there a way to fake the feelings behind a kiss?

Could we say that a kiss is another tool or medium to communicate?

There is this one kiss that I never forget. It was my first innocent kiss. Nothing ever tops that feeling (so far). It feels perfect and sweet like vanilla ice cream with caramel syrup and cherry on top, just the way I like it.

It was a lovely trip to the beach with my love ones; my family, a couple of friends and of course “the guy”. I was in Junior High. This trip turns out to become the trip that I can’t forget. Never thought a family trip could turn to my "first kiss trip". Not gonna tell you the detail coz it will be too long. All that i can say is, an extra help was needed by that time. And the help comes from a piece of candy. It was cute.

When it happened you feel like it wasn’t real. You opened your eyes and voilllllaaa!!! It wasn’t a dream. You just feel these butterflies tickling inside your belly. You smile the whole time that you just don’t believe it happen. You see the guy & you just smile. I saw him playing basketball & I smile. I bet if my mother saw me, she will ask me if i was ok. Every single eye contact you made with him you just know the click. We experience something that only both of us knew. A little secret just between us that no one in that place or even the whole world knew. It is special. I am happy.

Every person experiences a first kiss. There is always a first for everything. Every single first is a memory that a person couldn't erase. It will be filed neatly inside the drawers in your brain. It is sweet how a kiss can give you such a feeling that couldn’t be described.

But then I couldn’t stop myself to wonder will I get that kind of feelings again?

dead end or happily ever after?

It is a weird week. Many things happened and I am betting that many things are lining up for "their official premier". Today I feel empty and I don’t know why. Maybe there are too many things going on and it happened so fast, my brain just froze.

Yesterday was one of those weird days. Someone that makes me feel home was here. It was a lovely, fun and weird night. Never believe that his around. Never believe the day would come. It has been our discussion for 2 years that maybe someday he’ll come and be around in the same country or maybe the country near by. Unbelievably he did it.

At some point we sat and share stories, close by my room window. I was too excited till I didn’t realize the changes that happen to the weather outside. It was cloudy, but It’s still a little warm outside. It feels as summer breeze was saying goodbye. As the breeze pass us by, it took our stories with them to the wonderland.

Anyways, can’t give you the detail what stories we shared. But by the end I found something that I keep asking myself, when should we stop waiting?

At some point i do believe that people will wait for love. When someone has special feeling to "somebody else" and they are still waiting for his/her turn to come. Could that be one of the craziest and riskiest things to do? What happen if that "somebody else" is somebody else’s lover? Does that make any different, or is it still the same coz the theme is still waiting?Could that prove how much you care for that somebody?

People do intend to do outrages things when they are moved by something that is outstanding. By that sentence (which is confusing I might add) it means that a person could have the patient to wait even for years if, they really meant by what they feel. They just have the strength and believe. There must be a doubt somewhere inside there. But, it will be perfectly covered by all the imagination of what we want. Suddenly you just swallow all the pain and try to live with it. As days gone by you start to loose track on how long you’ve been waiting.

As the stars outside give me the company as I’m writing tonight I couldn’t help but wonder. Does waiting patiently bring you to a dead end or living happily ever after?

The L word..followed with O..and so on

I’ve been sitting here in my room for 3 days doing nothing. Well not really, but kind of. But anyways, I’ve been listening to some songs. Can't deny knowing the fact that most of the songs are made based on the word love. Even Rock songs have some songs telling love stories. Either it’s in a broken hearted situation or even the sweet memories between 2 people. Weird but it’s true.

There are songs telling how their love ones hurts their feeling. It could be that they don’t match. There are love songs telling us about waiting for someone to come.

Imagine someone is waiting for someone. Everybody knows that waiting is the least thing we want to do. But funny it is even people who hate to wait will wait for love. People could turn crazy, desperate and sick coz of love.

Love, Is it just a feeling inside that is so vague that you’re so lost in it?

1 word with a strong effect, 1 word with a vague meaning. Even oxford dictionary have at least 10 points in explaining what love means. Even though the 10th one is about tennis (But still it’s the meaning of the word love). i guess that explains how vague love could be. That 1 word could give many inspiration for all the people in the world. But then again that word could be an inspiration to kill someone or even start a war. Does love actually have those huge effects on this world? All I know it’s a dangerous word that maybe, we need a prescriptions for it. I ask my friends, how can you explain the word love. They just answer, “ you will know the answer when you’re in love”

Then I couldn’t help my self but wonder does anybody really know what love means?