Friday, February 9, 2007

What will you do in your last minute?

My friend forced me to watch a movie called “if Only”. Anyways, that movie made me miss “my coffee” even more. It made me realize even more, how lucky I am. That movie made me realize how caring for someone could be so beautiful. It is funny how everybody starts his or her care for his or her special someone. Maybe, he/she is someone that you accidentally bump in your life where faith bring you two in one point to be one. But, there should be something about him/her that attracts you. Afterwards, you care for them more than you realize. After all those feelings rushing in, the weird part is you are willing to do crazy things for them. But then I started to wonder in that roller coaster, how long it would last? How much are you willing for that feeling to last? I guess it depends on how much you appreciate the feeling that you both have. Then I started to wonder, how much you could appreciate what you have?

In that movie it shows that the guy had to went through such a bad tragedy to realized how much he love his girl. He got to face a tragedy to feel how much he didn’t treat his girl right, where actually the girl was always there for him just to make everything better. After the tragedy he knows how much he don’t want to loose her. He regret for not showing how much he needed her. Anyways, after that movie I know that there is one point where you just regretted for not showing enough of your love. But, do you need “regret” to show love? How can we realize “love” before “regret” comes?

Imagine when it snows in wintertime. You see how beautiful the town could be all cover in white. But when the snow disappears you just regret why you didn’t take at least one picture of it. You remembered that you were too lazy to go out and face the cold in that time. You thought that it would last at least for another day. You did hope that you might be able to see it the next morning when you opened your bedroom curtains. My point is that we imagine, what will we feel if we loose our special someone. What will we do in our last 1-minute (with someone that you really care) just to let them know how much they meant for us?

Love is pure. Sometimes you just don’t realize that it’s there. For example, you never really realize how much your parent loves you. It’s too pure that you just don’t really realize it. You keep arguing with them every time you got a chance. If you just once acknowledge and try to be more sensitive that all they did was based on the love for you. As I say, sometime you may forget or didn’t realize that is actually there on every step of your life. It’s there and makes you grow. It’s just an example why love is so pure. It’s like the air that surrounded us. We need it to survive. But sometime, we just don’t remember that it’s there. Feel it, what will make love more colorful and obvious in your own way.

I am advising you to show your love as much as you can. Push regrets away before it comes. You’ll never know what destiny may deliver you to. Tell the one that you love every time you got a chance. Forget about ego, forget about self-esteem, and forget about your pride. Just let them know, as it was your last minute with them. Show them that you care. Show them how much they mean to you. It’s about making a good memory, share times whether you are near or far. Give comfort to one and another. Make each other feel secure that everything will be fine. Bottom line make the most of it. Like it’s your last second with them. Then you’ll know that you had made the most of it. Then you know you had passed your day perfectly. Just make sure you did it right hope you won't wish you could turn back time. It’s never enough time to show love. But, you know you did the best and right for it.

I dedicate this blog to my coffee. Thank you for making my days beautiful. Thank you for holding me so tight when I think I’m about to fall. Thank you for supporting me on each difficult things in my each and everyday. You have stand by my side while I walk through my life long enough than we realize. You give me comfort. You give me the fairytale that I wish for. Thank you for being mine.

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Fat Attack!

As I looked at the mirror today, I think I gain more weight. Ha ha, I realize I used to panic on this kind of thing. I blame it to the season. Yeah winter weight, it is so annoying when winter comes. You just can’t stop eating. You crave for this and that. You went to the supermarket and you end up adding cookies, chocolate and chips in your shopping trolley, instead of following your grocery list. I know! Forbidden foods in girl’s agenda.

We panic when we gain weight. Girls are afraid they will turn to unattractive girls. Coz we have the perspective that guys love girls who looks beautiful, attractive, skinny and sexy. But, do you really know what is in the mind of your guy?

I ask my boyfriend once what he finds attractive from me. He answer, he loves my fingers. He finds them sexy. He love my hair, He likes the way I looked at him and how I smile. He loves how it feels when he hugs me. He never thinks that my belly is too chubby. I started to think why he didn’t think I was too chubby in the belly? My friend told me, guys sometimes like a little bit fat. They like something they could hold. They don’t want to hug a skeleton.

Did you ever knew that they find it adorable that you care about the way you look but it doesn’t mean that they demand you to change? They feel disturbed when you got all paranoid about how you look.

I wish that all girls could see the meaning of "guys likes beautiful girls" from a different perspective. You don't have to look like supermodel to be beautiful. let's categorize them as goddess instead. But, What is beautiful? It is how you dress and how your personalities are. How you look healthy and glow. It is how your eyes glare. What is attractive? It is how you smile and how you laugh. How you see life and how you think. How you walk and talk. How you pampered your self not how you torture yourself. It is how comfortable you are about yourself.

I read an article the other day. There is a statistic that shows how many girls try to do a strict diet and force them self to the gym just to lose weight. They cut down their foods and try to eat small portions or even once a day. They avoid eating deserts or sweets. But, then I started to wonder why do girls went all those things just to be skinny? Do you feel afraid that you will be breaking up with your guy because how you look?

Believe me sometime I get paranoid about that as well. Once, I ask my boyfriend does my thigh looks big. He said it would be better if it were little smaller and tight. I laugh; I said thanks and I’ll try to make it smaller, which I don’t know how. But then I said to him, he also has to try living with these ones as well. I find it adorable how he tries to let me know and be honest. But, I could see how uncomfortable he is for being honest to me. It doesn't mean that we are going to break up because of it. Do you know why I did that? I just want to know what does he thinks about me physically.

I know every guy have different opinions and taste if it comes to girls. Maybe some guys are pretty demanding. What girls need to do is to communicate on what your guy thinks on how you look. Try to make a giggle out of it. As long as you try to take care of yourself and hopefully they will appreciate it. By the end of the day if you feel comfortable and take a good care on how you look, your guy will feel the same. If they can't tolerate. Don't even bother to stay with a guy who doesn't appreciate for who you are. You did try to take care of yourself anyways.

Hey! we are humans’ nobodies perfect. We are beautiful as god made us. Just take care our self, but don’t over do it. Spoil and pampered our self, but do control it for your own health.

What’s wrong with a little fat if it makes you healthily beautiful?