Is there any pure happiness? Would you/did you ever feel completely happy if/when you see your special someone smiles next to someone else instead of you? You may feel happy for your special one, if they are happy. But inside those happiness that you feel, there should be a wound, a Drop of pain that can’t be heal. at least we try..
Could we let our love one completely free? maybe never, maybe someday, or maybe we did...
I was planning to clean my room, but somehow my laziness struck me. What can I say; on my free day I prefer being lazy. Anyways, a song with the title “Love moves in mysterious ways” was playing from my laptop. It made me think, does love really moves in mysterious ways?
We may think that we can control how love happens. We see a guy/girl that we like and we make a move. In a way we never really thought, where did that feeling of like comes from? How come we saw each other at that moment? Why not when you are in the age of 10 instead of 20? Why him/her not the other guy/girl that is in the same room with you that moment? I never could answer that. Somehow you feel that you found a bridge that shows your way to that person.
Now imagine you are in an open space. For example, in a garden party, Somehow with all the people there your eye is tied with one person only. Then automatically your eyes search for him/her, if suddenly in 1 point he/she went out of your sight. You just have this radar that work to spot him/her in just the count of seconds. Is that one more thing about move in mysterious ways? It is weird. If the eye contact that was made happens many times and a smile happens to be in 1 cute package with it will that make a different meaning? But somehow I couldn’t help but wonder, when 2 people eyes meets, does that explain something or is it just a coincidence that it doesn’t mean a thing? If there is a message behind it, will it be passed perfectly just by eye contacts? Could an eye contact be a message messenger?
It is sugar feast for every Muslim in the world… So in that case will like to say happy sugar feast. Minal aidin wal faidzin everybody..
It's 5 A.M and i'm awake. WoooHHooo.. Not a normal thing to happen and to do for a lazy girl name Chakee. However, while I’m hoping for my friends to open their eyes and take their lazy ass to the shower, I am actually waiting for the water to boil (for my morning coffee). As I throw my sight to the dark dawn sky, I started to wonder Could we easily forgive?
There are many things that we ask and give for an apology in this world. There are lies; there are mistakes, bad attitudes and so on that we want to clear the air from. Since it could be a weeklong discussion for all of those points, I’m going to make this short. So I’ll narrow it down and talk about one of the things we most likely do. Lie! Many people lie. We make a mistake then we lie, we are hiding something then we lie, we feel bad then we lie and all other reasons that bring us to the “Lie Land”. Nevertheless, there are many ways to get there. There are small lies, big lies. There are white lies, black lies. There are lies with plans and lies in the last minute. Any kind of lies you want to list. In the theory of forgiveness it stated that we could forgive or accept someone apology for his or her lies, as long the address for the “lie package” are right (by that sentence I mean the reasons). But Does that rule could be easily use to all lies we made in practice?
What happen if you lie to yourself about your feeling? In short (in my opinion) it is known as denial. Lets take a case, If you like someone that actually not available (other word is not single), you lie to him/her about your feelings since you don’t want him/her to be “cornered” by your feelings. In this case, you lied maybe with a reason that you want him/her finish his/her “things” with his/her present partner and deal with you later. Is that lying acceptable? You lie to your self. Are you capable to forgive yourself lying to your own heart?
Somehow you try to save your feeling for not confusing him/her. You act like you could deal with it and postpone all the feelings for him/her. How long you could gamble for something that you don’t even know what will happen to you in the future? While your feelings in stake and you hold it all for his/her advantage, could that be called a white lie? But then I remember when you start a lie; another lie will come and follow. While you hold your feelings and made another lie to yourself that everything will be ok, or I can wait don’t you worry lie (for example), could you actually handle it all? And in for that matter somehow you hurt yourself in one way, could you forgive then forget a lie you make to yourself?
I guess it couldn’t be forgotten. Anyways every mistake that you made will leave a hole in your heart or someone else’s heart. A mark that is hard to be erased. When you are alone at night you feel the pain that no one could heal. There should be a time that those mistakes flash back into our mind, it could be an accident or in a certain purpose brought it up to the surface. While the person you are waiting enjoying each minute of his/her feeling with the other person, (for the case above) I suggest for you to stop lying about your feelings in the sake of someone else happiness, which he/she didn’t even care about yours.
SPECIAL BLOG DELIVERY FOR: MY LITTLE BROTHER..
I was chatting with my brother this afternoon. He was babbling about his love life. It has been a while since the last time we up date each other. I was reading my little brother story. He was telling how sad he is waiting for his lady to stop playing around. Somehow that gal still fooling around with other boys, in the same time she promise my brother that she is coming back with him. It doesn't really matter about the details. Main point is that I started to realize how come the problem that his facing is almost the same as mine?
I believe that everybody have the same main line in life. We are expected to deal and learn for the same messages in life. However, the problem may happen in a different ways and in different time. But as I said it should have the same main message to be learn. Another point that we should remember is that we have our own way to deal with those problems. Then I started to wonder how actually we could deal with it? Does this modern life have its own effect on how we deal with our love life?
People sometimes act so desperate when it deals with love. Especially with all the pressure from this modern life and lifestyle, love life started to turn somewhat depressing as well. Most people still have the patience to believe that every “Adam” could find their “Eve” or the other way around. You started to mess up your life and somehow that show your desperate situation. Are we in a denial that we actually do hope for someone? Your friends try to find a solution to your pain or you started to make your self busy to deny the need of someone next to you. By the end of the day you realize even more, that no one special is next to you. You don’t really have someone walk with you hand in hand through all of your pain. I ask my self again, do I really need someone else next to me? Is it that hard to be single?
I use to be the girl that deals with all the balls that are juggling in my life by sitting still. I try to catch it one by one in silent. As I grow older by time. I change the way I view and solve it all. I ask people to juggle with me and help me clean the mess I am in. I started to catch more than one ball in one time. I lost my way to solve my problems. I ask them for advices, I ask people for comfort and all. Then I started to think, do we really need somebody when maybe you can fill that somebody place by yourself?
The answer is always in you. Someone else in your life could be the ornament for a Christmas tree. The ornaments may make the tree looks beautiful. Even without it, the tree shows the same feeling for people who looks at it. It is still a beautiful tree for Christmas, but it wouldn’t be perfect. Then I started to wonder, is that one of the way we deal with life?
I notice there are many ways to deal with life. As I always said the decision will be ours to decide. We learn to make a decision since we are young. There are many decisions we did take and we will take. As we grow older the decision demands a full focus before it take place. We may need some inputs to find the right decision. There should be a risk to be face afterwards, a sacrifice, and strength to take that decision. However I started to wonder how long and strong a person could stand for their Deal and Decision?
I wish that someone were here next to me. It is cold outside and I wished someone were hugging me through the night. Well I can use the thing that someone invented, which we call a blanket. But wouldn’t it be nicer if your love one were hugging you? Sometime I feel sad that the one I care about is miles away from me. Distance is bugging me. But what can i say. Thank god we are not in different continent at least. But somehow it’s funny; when he is next to me sometimes I turn to this speech less woman. I can’t say a word to him. Every single word just stuck in my throat. Then I couldn’t help but wonder, is there any easy way to communicate?
It happens when you are nervous or maybe you are too scared to tell. There are many reasons for you to become a speech less person. You want to tell how you feel in words instead of an action to prove. But somehow the words just don’t come out. What would you do by that time?
It happened once. Someone that I care was next to me. I was crying. We talked about our situation. We shared what had happen when we are far away from each other. We had a sad moment (I will say) before that. Well obviously since I was crying. Anyways, I can’t say a word. There many questions i want to ask and many things i want him to know. I want to say to him how much I care for him, how much I don’t want him to go, How much I don’t want to loose him. I want to say how much he means to me. Well my tears showed the feeling. But only god knows what he was thinking while I was crying. There should be some mix messages inside that brain. And then some songs played in the background. My laptop was on and it plays all of these music’s. Somehow lucky me it’s the play list that I made for him, which some of the songs was our song. He notices. He ended up sitting close to me hug me tight. It feels comfortable and warm. He turns my tears into a smile. I remember that he asked me, “Are songs somehow change to your way to communicate?” I guess it is. I communicate with him through the songs. He answers me through the hug. It was two different ways to communicate, from two different people. Suddenly tears turns to romance. It turned to be one of my special nights with him.
I realize how much silent could be a perfect and romantic moment. It may sound cheesy for some. You may ask how come silent be a romantic moment? Aren’t we supposed to be talking with each other when you’re with your partner? Not always for me. As I said before it’s romantic. All you need in those times are the right person close to you, silent and right songs on the background. Or maybe some candles as the last touch. You can feel how much you feel comfortable with your partner. Snuggle together. mmmmm..You just enjoy each other company and travel your lovely times with them. Someday when you are in different places, countries or even continents, you and your partner can feel each other’s companionships through the songs that was shared just between you two. There are many romantic ways where you can create with your love one.
If you ask yourself when was the last time you experience a romantic moment, the answer may be “I don’t really remember when”. May i say, "Not good". It seems ages ago when a guy/girl left a note in a piece of paper and left it somewhere in your room that written “I miss you” on it or other romantic gesture that just made you fly with all your butterflies, which turns to memories that you can remember when you are away from each other. All i can say is spice it up a little bit.
But then I couldn’t help but wonder are romantic gestures still in the menu?